All eight of your roommates are 21 your whole junior year. You're alone while all of them go out to the bars multiple times a week. You know you aren't going to turn 21 until about halfway until your senior year. You have a birthday countdown on your phone for about 10 months that you check at least weekly. You make plans of what you think the special day will entail.
Then, one month before your birthday, you get diagnosed with cancer. You are filled with anger, knowing that you will not be able to celebrate your birthday normally. You can't celebrate it the way you want to.
Furthermore, you are told you should have limited amounts of alcohol for the duration of your treatment. Tell any college senior that, let alone someone who just got the right to consume alcohol legally. It's not fair.
The doctor said a few drinks here and there will not harm anything. The only concern is its effect on the liver. During chemotherapy, everything gets filtered through the liver. The liver is under extra stress, and regularly consuming alcohol could potentially effect it. I definitely will be taking him up on those "few beers here and there" because damn it this shit makes you want a drink sometimes.
One thing that I promised myself is that it will not stop me from having fun. I go out to the bars frequently with my roommates, even if it means I can't be drinking alcohol.
I have realized a few things since attending bars sober.
1. Ricks smells really bad. I'd describe it as a mixture of B.O. and urine. This pleasant smell was never noticed by my previously drunken states.
2. I'm a really awkward dancer when I'm sober. Those great dance moves I used to have seem to be impossible to recreate.
3. I forget how to socialize. The drunker people get, the more awkward my efforts at conversation become.
4. I don't know what to do with my hands without a glass in them. It is so much more comfortable when you can hold something.
So.. you may be asking, how do you entertain yourself?
My new favorite thing to do is order drinks that look alcohol and act extremely intoxicated. I often order a sprite with lime, resemblant of a vodka soda. I've become pretty good, and I often get strange/concerned looks from my friends. Hopefully i'll find some personal games and more ways to entertain myself, because being sober at bars is not an easy feat when tackled alone.