Now that I am no longer wearing my wig, it is harder to feel confident in public. I feel like I stick out like a sore thumb.
At first it really bothered me. I would see people staring at me, so many people staring. I was embarrassed and vulnerable, and there was no where I could hide.
Every night I have dreams that my hair is long again, only to wake up to reality. Literally every single night. I look in the mirror when I wake up in hopes that it looks even the slightest bit longer.
Before losing my hair, I never knew how much it made me who I am. Without it, I really don't feel like myself.
So many strangers have told me that they love my "hair cut." I smile and say, "Thank you," but what I really want to do is tell them the truth. It wasn't my choice. They get this sense that I am bold, confident, and comfortable in my skin. Maybe if I had chosen this "hair cut" that would be true, but I didn't. I'm vulnerable and unsure, rediscovering my identity.
I'm still working on my confidence, and I find confidence in other things. As time goes on, it grows. Compliments and kindness have actually helped me become more comfortable and happy with myself, which has made me realize how important it is to share kindness to others.
Today, give someone a compliment. It can be anything, appearance related or not. You could really make a difference in someone's day.